Steve Madewell: Music
Beyond Where I Have Been
(Steve Madewell)
I met a really interesting person at WEstern College of Miami Univesity, Ron Barcal. Ron and I used to go walking in the night through the woods with out a light. I learned to enjoy that and feel comfortable in submerging myself in the world in a different way, and sensing things differently. Surrendering to the darkness and trusting different senses to get me back home.
I agonized over the recording of this song. Everything I did made it sound just way to emotionless. The version that is on Arrow Creek was recorded at about 3 in the morning when I was just about exhausted.
I wanted to send a version it to Caroline and I didn't like anyting that I had, so I fired up the recorded and put this down, transferred the file and emailed it to Colorado. The next day she sent me a wonderful assessment of the song. I cued it up and played it back and was amazed at waht the version I had recorded.
I walk this road alone at night
not knowing where I=ll go
to find the piece of mind I seek
A place I used to know
Where the promise of the rising sun
still burned with the sunsets glow
I walk this lonesome road at night
looking for what I let go
And the many turns I have chose to take
still haunt me in my sleep
the footfalls of my restless feet
still echo in my dreams
I can=t recall their wondering and relive where they could have been
I can only hope to walk along
until I=m back where I began
Somehow this song has burned it=s tune
Deep inside my brain
As I walk along with out a light
down this tar chipped lane
The melody I hum again
like a sweet gospel refrain
and I will travel on tonight
Until I=m back where I began
The memory still haunts me dear
each time I relive that scene
I have to find some way to move beyond where I have been
Yes I have to find some way to move beyond just where I am